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Saturday, May 09, 2009

alright, i kinda didnt speak much to my bee yesterday neither did i text him. in fact, i delibrately

ignored his calls. i wasnt mad at him. i mean its good that he is working hard. so even when he

wanted to talk to me, i didnt want to. i dont know if i was too tired and so tied up by everything

that i need to do, that i have no mood and no interest and no conviction to love him. im sorry. im

just being truthful. i still remained faithful to you, bee. maybe i was just feeling really exhausted

and tired. i thin throughout cca showcase, i've used up my total number of words i will speak in a

day, that i didnt feel like talking. im so happy that his appointment was cancelled, though i didnt

want it to be. so contradicting! cause i get to meet him, so im happy. but he wouldnt get to close

case, means no income. pouts!

I NEED TO STUDY!!!

I WANT TO STUDY!!!

LET ME STUDY!!!

I MUST STUDY!!!

I HAVE TO STUDY!!!

@ 11:02 AM