still have to go to school.
sad to say, but its not the hols for me yet.
went to school,
lessons as usual.
was super boring.
after school, joy and i both took the bus down to church.
went to church for pos practice.

practice today was kinda bad for me.
felt super low went i went for practice.
during practice,
it made me feel worst.
i totally didnt have confidence at all.
felt soo soo lousy and useless,
felt as if i was the worst flyer.
i felt so extra too.
feeling as if without me,
things would be much better.
as i was looking around,
i asked myself,"why am i here?"
so crapy la.
later, i couldnt take it so i walked off.
joy said i disappeared for about an hour.
wasnt too sure if it was really so long.
anyway, came back.
still didnt have confidence in doing pop twist.
didnt want to do,
but i didnt have a choice.
everything was in a total mess!
1st attempt:
giant got injured, caus emy elbow hit his teeth, and it bled.
sorry giant..
later it got better,
but still felt like i cant do it,
and felt super stressed.

now, my bottle is full already.
have been bottling up everything.
so many things happened.
-results
-parents
-sister
-cell stuff
-pos.
after all this,my bottle is FULL already.
went to stay over at rah's place.
i emtied my bottle then.
felt so carefree after that. =D

slept till late in the afternoon again.
woke up, ate magee again.
and played sims 2 too.
went out later to town with lots of people.
went to watch X -man again.

i feel so crap living in this freaking house.
people think im a robot.
they think im the cause of everything that happens.
i feel so demoralized.
parents are super strict with me nowadays.
leading a crappy life.
everything is my fault!
man.. i have got nothing better to say about it.
makes me feel so lousy and stupid.
i feel that i cent even excel in anything that i do,
feels that i have ruined everything.

woke up late.. haha!!
as usual. its a SUNDAY!!
mommmy drove me to expo,
for pos rehersal.
sigh. everything was so messy today.
for one moment i felt like giving up.
oh.. and the skirt was so difficult to dance in,
kept going up,
then it became loose.

anyway went out with lots of people today.
went to eat at some place at cine,
and watch X-man with lots of people. haha!
later went to esplanade, and met a few others.
wanted to get my nike bag after that,
but didnt have time.
so went home.
jeff [GIANT] sent me home! haha..

shall stop here now,
mommy wants to use the com.
so i have to let her use it.
seee.. im a GOOD daughter. haha!!

THANKS DIANA!!! [MY LOVER!!]
she came to support me today!! :)))
such a sad thing to say,
none of my cg members came to support me!
even my daddy was there today.
even joy [my best friend] didnt turn up!
making empty promises. :((

HAHA!!! im happy but not really.
came in 3rd in triathlon finals.
haha! won $100 nike vouchers!
at least i can do some shopping. haha..
i think it was super funny.
after the swim, i was 3rd,
but later 1 girl, she was super pro la.
she overtook me and the other 2 infornt,
and came in first. power man.
anyway, then i was in 4th position.
after awhile, heard some foot noise,
thought someone was about to overtake me,
and i was damn scared la.
cause it'll be kinda difficult for me to clinch at least the 3rd position if i was in the 5th place.
haha!! so i ran faster..
and eventually overtook the 3rd girl,
so i became the 3rd position,
anyway, later this passer-by ran passed me,
haha!! i was like "oh chey" in my heart. haha
it just a passer-by, not my competitor.
anyway, i had to psycho myself to maintain my speed,
since i was already in the 3rd position.
haha. i almost forget the verse,
but thank God i remembered. lol.
isaiah 40:31
but those who wait on th Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles,
they shall run and not be weary,
they shall walk and not faint.
haha!! i can still remember. lol.
anyway, continued to cycle after that.
it was swim, run, and then cycle.
cycling was a breeze man. haha..

anyway, went to bathe later.
got a really bad flu after that.
i was sneezing till my nose was super painful.
haha!! anyway, collected my medal and voucher,
took pictures.. and waited for chuan yu and keenan,
then went to take the train to go to town.
3 of us went to town to shop at nike.
wanted to eat at cine too,
but didnt have time.

went home after that to bathe and eat.
got chnage, and went to expo.
didnt usher today.
both my little toes were hurting,
cause didnt run with proper shoes.

after svc, left with mom.
we had dinner at sakae at city link.
ate alot today.. ahha!!
was super hungry.. =P
later,went to topshop at suntec to buy "shorts" for pos.
haha!! its my first time spending like $72 on undies.
hahahha!!! lol. had to use mom's atm, cause i didnnt had enough with me.
went home after that,
was super tired.
until now, my head i still heavy,
ot feeling really well..
hope i'll be better tmr.
pos preview tmr!!! :D

chc!! my medal!!! :DDD

my medal!! :DDD [B div triathlon female 3rd]

out of boredom, rah and i were trying to smile like jiejie pearl, cause we were talking about her. haha!!! .. lol.

seeing them as a class, singing songs, having fun, brings back REALLY SAD memories of 2/8. i miss 2/8!!!

me, amanda tan!!! :D

haha!!! boredom..

as you can see, darl is having fun!lol.

during the process..

rah,me,darl,jo. haha!! while waiting for dear joy..

my hair!! darl tied it for me. obviously we were bored..

haha! stole some chocs, while selling. haha!! boredom..

RUSSIAN VODKA!! cool huh?! haha.aunt just came back from moscow thats why..

darl's hair!! i tied it for her! nice right?! hahah. as you see, we were all super bored...

my leg muscles were really hurting this morning,
so i didnt want to go to school.
haha! so in the end i pon school.
rah and joy pon school too. haha!
i think people think that we plan about it.
anyway woke up,
cooked udon, while waiting for sims 2 to load.
yep. haha! played sims 2 today,
till i forgot about the time. lol
went to bathe and had to rush out of the house.
went to cell house early,
to do SPRING CLEANING!!

OMG!! haha!! I SERIOUSLY THANK GOD THAT I WENT THERE LATE!! HAHA!! KELVIN AND JONAH WERE KILLLING ROACHES!! GOSH!! ITS LIKE ONE HUMONGOUS MOUNTAIN!! IT WAS SUPER GROSS!!!! HAHA!! I MOPPED THE HOUSE 3 TIMES!!! AND THE WATER WAS STILL BLACK IN COLOUR! can you imagine how gross it was?!

haha. anyway, went to eat prata with guo,
waited for mom to fetch us back.
we talked alot,
shared lots of stuff..
im thinking so much again.
lots of stuff on my mind.
i wanna talk to someone about it,
but i dont know how to say,
how to express my words. =(
does he have a split personality of something?
afraid of meeting new people in my life already.
it makes life scary,
unable to imagine what its like.
i feel that im super naive about every single thing.
why is life like that?
why do people like to fool and play around?
is it really that fun?!
man.. they are super hard-hearted.
felt like a totally different person after today,
realise something about myself,
that i never tought it would be a reason.
dont feel like blogging already.
i wanna sleep now, and prepare for triathlon tmr!
butterflies in my tummy now,
wonder who will be there to support me tmr.
will it be my sis and diana only?!

had cross country today.
haha! didnt know how to go there,
so mommy fetch me there.
it was fun runnning. lol
im happy with myself,
because i didnt walk at all. =)
anyway, kinda sad la.
i miss by only a few people,
then i can get a medal already. =(
haha!! just found out that,
there is another giirl in sec 4 too,
that is named 'vanessa soh' too.
its coincidental. she has the SAME name as me!
same surname too!! lol. cool huh?!
anyway, we[darl,bay,joy,rah and i] went to raffles to eat.
we had lunch at mos burger,
cause joy had a craving for something.
haha!! anyway, bay and i was damn funny.
we were SUPER hungry, we were gonna faint laready la,
and joy, rah, and darl still continued shopping.
then bay and i were like,
'1,2,3 BITE! ' haha!! we bit one another. lol.
we were damn hungry la,
wanna eat one another up already.
haha! anyway walk over to marina after that.
haha! wanted to watch 'voice',
but they didnt have the shown there.
so in the end we didnt watch, just shop!
but i was really dead tired.
haha! and bay wasnt interested in shopping,
so we both sat down at any chair we could find,
in any shop, and anywhere. haha!
wanted to go home,
but thought maybe i shouldnt,
althought iwas really really tired.
took train down later to chc,with bay.
had preview today.
it was FUN!! :D
the first time was good,
second time, wasnt as good.
kinda disappointed with myself,
abut today's preview.
probably i just have too high expectations.
haha!! i dont know.

haha! AT FIRST, it was quite boring at school,
BUT became fun after the ice-cream arrive. haha!!
darling did my hair for me!!
its SUPER NICE!! haha..
anyway, worked as cashier today.
it was kinda fun. haha.
collecting and counting money...
OH welll.. later in the day,
4/8 gathered together to sing and all,
and bay played the guitar.
i felt so touched la.
its so united!!! =(
it made me think of how fun 2/8 was last time.
having to get into trouble,
and facing the scolding together.
i wonder when 4/7 would be as united.
there may be fights and all,
within the class, but still..
i believe there should be unity within the class.
longing for that day to come..
anyway, joy didnt go for pos today,
so i took 174 alone,
all the way to boon lay, to go for pos.
it was fun!!! towards the end.
thank God dad didnt scold me or anything,
for coming home late.
its been a tiring week man.
so many stuff to do.
did ALOT of talking over the phone.
my throat feels so dry now.
did emerge attendance.. sigh. so tiring!
anyway feeling so excited for tmr!!!
i cant wait for CROSS COUNTRY!! haha..
it will be my VERY FIRST TIME running at macritchie!!
haha!! for once, im gonna have an early night. lol.

AHAHAH!! it was soo boring yesterday,
that i didnt want to go to school today.
i asked mommy,
at first she didnt allow me to go,
then this morning i persuaded her again,
and she finally allow me to not go to school!
defiantely a YAY!!
otherwise i'll die of boredom.
haha!! rah and joy went to school today,
BUT bay and i btoh didnt go to school today.
lol. yeah sounds like we're playing hide and seek.
anyway, i slept till like 1.30 in the afternoon.
haha!! it was a great sleep,
after such a long time.
anyway, went to church for prayer meeting today.
it was great..
i cant wait for emerge,
but its so scary!! pos is on the first day.
its so fastt!!!
ok.later, went to eat at KFC,
then home.. yay!! finally..

it was a REALLY BORING DAY at school today.
all we had to do was spent the ENTIRE MORNING brain-storming,
on what we could do to raise funds.
it was some mercy relief thing.
haha!! we had more then enough time.
all i did in school was :
-talk
-sleep
-pluck eyebrowns
-play solitaire on ipod
-tie funky hair
hahaha! yep. that was what i did in school today.
rah and joy both didnt come to school today,
both were sick.. =(
what a coincident huh. sigh..
i wanna ponn school tmr!!!!
but mommy dont allow. =(
another boring day.. oh myyy..
anyway, went to art friend after school,
to buy some stuff for cell.
wanted to go swimming,
but it started raining when i reached home.
so decided not to go anymore.
haha! i cooked my own lunch,
and played sims 2!!!! :DD
HAHA!! i miss my sims people. lol.

OH! THANKS CHING SENG!!! HAHA! :D
FOR FINDING MY GOGGLES FOR ME!

finally blogging now..
sigh. was sooo busyy just now.
so many things today.
my fingers are tired already.
kept typing none stop..
anyway.. haha!! didnt usher today.
was super tired, and i couldnt wak up.
had to wake up at 6a.m.
its so EARLY!!!hahaa!!
im not an early bird.
in the end just woke up at 7.15 am.
which was still VERY EARLYL!!
then choo-chooed down to expo.
saw him at tanah merah,
then realised that we were actually in the same train.
anyway, went for svc and late had lunch at orange julius, then went for pm.
a really long day today.
came home after that.
GUO SENT ME HOME AGAIN.
hahah. great company. lol
but at least i wouldnt feel so bored.
its the 3rd time in a row. lol.
came home, wanted to play sims 2,
but dad was using the com,
which i use to play, so cant play.
went online instead.
soon enough, i fell asleep.
was super tired.. lol.

woke up late today..
so bathe, and went for tuition!!
(mrs towey!!! she is so adorable. )
haha. cherry was so funny today.lol.

anyway, came home, got change.
later, met guo at my place,
and went cycling together.
it was so FUN!! but TIRING!!!! XD
we cycle from my place(dakota crescent),
passed by shenton way to harbour front.haha!
then BREAK TIME!! yay! :DD
we went to coffee club for dinner,
and later continued cycling. haha!!
wanted to go to sentosa!! but couldnt go.. =(
some other time then. haha!
then cycled home!!!
JONAH SENT ME HOME AGAIN!
he cycled with me back to my place.
after a cup of iced water,
he cylced back home all by himself..
it was so scary to cycle at night.
went pass some really DARK CREEPY place.
luckily guo was with me,
at least i had some company.
on the way to my place,
guo almost had an accident!!
my goodness.. so dangerous! lol.
anyway,came home and then bathe again.

FINALLY! i went to the supermarket with mommy!
obviously, i did my own shopping there,
and mom paid for all my junk food!!
JUNK FOOD ARE THE BEST!!:DHAHA!!
i caused mommy to spent a BOMB at the supermarket.heh!

i wonder went will night be over.
always feeling different at night.
kinda weird at night time.
isnt it that by night everyone's mind should be tired,
and sleeping already,
but why is it that i think the most at night?!
worst still, thinking about bad stuff.
things that i shouldnt be thinking about,
of things that are bothering me.
i feel so half-hearted now.
i just cant understand why.
have been thinking about what guo said,while cycling..
im tired of leading a life that im living in now.
I HATE IT!!!
why is it that i meet certain people that are like that?!!!
makes my life soo miserable!!
I HATE YOUUU!!!
rah has got to help me!!
i feel like destroying my life competely.
but i know i cant do that.
i always remember what clarence told me,
'there are so many other things in this world that are worth being happy about.'
if not because of commitments that i have,
my life is long gone..

woke up late today..
so bathe, and went for tuition!!
(mrs towey!!! she is so adorable. )
haha. cherry was so funny today.lol.

anyway, came home, got change
later, met guo at my place,
and later went cycling together.
was so FUN!! but TIRING!!!! XD
we cycle from my place(dakota crescent),
passed by shenton way to harbour front.
haha! then BREAK TIME!! yay!
we went to coffee club for dinner,
and later continued cycling.
haha!! wanted to go to sentosa!!
but couldnt go.. =(
some other time then. haha!
then cycled home!!!
JONAH SENT ME HOME AGAIN!
he cycled with me back to my place,
then he went home,
after a cup of iced water,
all by himself..
it was so scary to cycle at night.
went pass some really DARK CREEPY place.
luckily guo was with me,
at least i had some company.
on the way to my place,
guo almost had an accident!!
my goodness.. so dangerous! lol.
anyway,came home and then bathe again.

FINALLY! i went to the supermarket with mommy!
obviously, i did my own shopping there,
and mom paid for all my junk food!!
JUNK FOOD ARE THE BEST!!:D
HAHA!! i caused mommy to spent a BOMB at the supermarket.=)

i wonder went will night be over.
always feeling different at night.
kinda weird at night time.
isnt it that everyones mind should be tired, and sleeping already by night,
but why is it that i think the most at night?!
worst still, thinking about bad stuff.
things that i shouldnt be thinking about,
of things that are bothering me.
i feel so half-hearted now.
i just cant understand why.
have been thinking about what guo said,while cycling..
im tired of leading a life that im living in now.
I HATE IT!!!
why is it that i meet certain people that are like that?!!!
makes my life soo miserable!!
I HATE YOUUU!!!
rah has got to help me!!
i feel like destroying my life competely.
but i know i cant do that.
i always remember what clarence told me,
'there are so many other things in this world that are worth being happy about.'
if not because of commitments that i have,
my life is long gone..

didnt go for pos today.
went to the gym to train for triathlon.
im scared but excited.
anyway rah and i both went to the gym.
its was super good.
i feel SUPER FIT after that. lol.
HAHAH!! OH.. rah and i had a crazy time today.
i was looking through the pictures on rah's com.
they were all DINOSAUR pictures. haha!!
it was SUPER DUPER FUNNY!!!
haha.. we both had a fun time laughing..
maybe i'll post a few of them. haha!!
i shall think about it,
and see if rah allows me to do that. :DD
chuan yu gave me a shock today.
haha!! he freaked me out!!
thoguht it was some crazy person,
that i dont know who,
that is msging me,
and has my number.lol.
the msg went like this:
->chuan yu: yo yo..
->van: who are you?!
->chuan yu: muahahaha... actually i dont know too..
then i decided to call,
to find out who it was.
only then i found out it was him.
anyway went for cell group meeting after that.
joy and i met up at hougang inter-change,
and bus down together.
at cell house, we were practicing dance.
OH! and there was a cockroach!! haha..
guo used bygone, killed it!!
but he swiped it up and brought it in front of joy and i.
we SCREAMED!!! obviously.. lol.
another funny incident happened DURING cell.
gosh!! and sis tammy was there.
it was soo funny. my goodness!!
and that was the 2nd one. haha!!
in the end, decided on spring cleaning next week.
after cell, practice dance again.
then went home. haha!!
PJ didnt come today,
so guo accompanied me home!
haha!! he said i have to blog about it,
so that is what im doing. haha.
but seriously, even if he didnt tell me to do so,
i would still blog about it.
haha!! GOOD BROTHER JONAH!! :)
OHHH!! MY MOMMY WENT TO MOS!!
so cool!!! but she didnt bring me along... =(
hahaha!! mom was super funny.
i didnt know mommy was so naughty. haha!!
what a happening mom i have..
(i just found out today!)
haha!! this shows that i've learn something new about mommy! :D

hahahha... look at this!!LOL.

isnt this cool?! lol. haha.

isnt it adorable?! haha. SO CUTE!!!

MY FAVOURITE PLACE AT THE ZOO!! HAHA. :DD

rah and i during break at KFC.

marco the giraffe! he is so handsome! =D

HORSE!! haha. it was so pretty, got scared half-way course it moved. lol.

haha with some woody people?!

bay, rah, and i with ADORABLE sea otters!! :DD my favourite!

rah and i [twinnies] at the zoo.

the baboons were humping!! hahah!! lol.

rah the flamingo!! hahha!!

haha!! our first stop at the zoo!!

have been feeling the same way since yesterday[thursday].
all because of results. =(
didnt perform too well.
not up to mine/parents expectations.
didnt feel like going home,
but i didnt have a choice.
i felt so lost,
i didnt know what i could do.
this feeling really suck.
people cry because of their results,
but i was different.
it wasnt because about my reults,
but the fear that i experience,
having somebody that you love,
not trusting you.
i hate it!!!!!
i wish there isnt such a word or a meaning about 'trust'.
i know i tried my best,
i studied really hard,
but somethings just doesnt turn out the way it is.
how annoying can that be?!

haha. when to the zoo today!!
joy felt like going,
so we all went.. haha!
it was SOO FUN!! haha.
OH! for once i was EARLY!!
haha. and joy was LATE! :DD
its was super funny at the zoo.
hd so much fun there.
i learn from this trip that even monkeys hump!
haha. it was super hilarious.
the baboons had REALLY HUGE RED backsides.
they were so adorable!!
but the weather was super hot.
its was so tiring to walk..
that children's world thing,
was super smelly.
guess the zoo keepers were like lazy or something.
then we ate thre and left.
i miss that little duck toy!!!
it so adorable. haha!!
anyway had to leave early,
cause had pos practice.

HOLIDAY TODAY!!:DD
woke up at about 10.30am.
haha. its quite early still,
considering that its a holiday today.
played sims2 again. :))
went to nathe at about 12+,
and off i went to visit granny!!
its been so long ever since i last saw her.
had lunch at grandma's place.
(granny cooks the BEST food)
went to meet joy after that at AMK.
later, went to church together for pos.
super tired today.
getting really sick now.
having a fever too. =(
and its getting worst compared to this afternoon.
should i see the doc?!
but i hate medicine!!! :((
mom and dad is not home too.
whose gonna bring me to visit mr doc?!

my new top from zara. just to pamper myself alittle after exams.

LAST DAY OF EXAMS!!!!

whooo~~ wooo.. hahaha!!! last paper was great. haha. end it off well.
obviously i went out after exams.
longing to go out!! :DD
and finally i can go shopping!! haha.
joy and darl's poa paper ended earlier so off they went to town first.
rah and mine amath paper ended later.
haha. so we cabbed down instead.
haha. lazy to wait for the bus la.
just had the urge to enjoy soon yeah.
we met and walk round town.
darl and i bought the same top from zara!!
its super duper nice!!!!! :DDD
hahaa.. cant wait to wear it. lol.
but i went home earlier.
the saddest thing that could ever happen,
is to fall ill after exams. =(
you'll just miss out on ALL the FUN!!
cause you'll be so tired, and not in the mood at all.

eventually, they all went to it, and i went home.
dad wasnt at home.
which was a good thing.
it was soooo boring at home.
but i didnt felt like going out, so came home.
i watched "i not stupid 2" aunt lend it to me.
while watching i was cooking my lunch.
haha! nothing happen, the food turn out GOOD! :))
ate and play sims 2 at the same time. lol.
i cann multi-task!! :)))

something when wrong with the internet since yesterday(friday).
so dad called up the starhub guy.
and there is only 1 internet connection now. =(
so only 1 person can use the internet at one time.
haha. thank God no one is at home!
so i get the chace to use the com. haha.
almost everything didnt go well today..
such a tiring day.
was ushering yesterday and today.
sigh. attendance this week wasnt too good.
it makes me stressss!!!
haha.. but oh yeah. mommy drove to expo today!
hhaa. so got a car ride instead!
i wish mommy does that every week.lol.
worst still.. fell ill like yesterday. =(
and exams are not even over yet.
had a super bad headache today, during svc.
my head was pounding. lol.
but it was so painful!

OH! there is this thing that i definately have to blog about it. haha!!
its about GUO! haha.
this only happens once in a blue moon. HAHA!!
guo finally didnt tease me,instead he said something nice! lol.
guess he should really does this more often. haha..

YAY!! I got into triathlon finals!! :D

out of alll my papers i flung Amath paper. GOSH!!!
how can that ever happen.
guess i seriously stress myself tooo much already.
until i blanked out during the exams.
it was so scary.
and not knowing what i could do,
i bit myself. =(
but how?!! i seriously need to pass!!
have never failed add math before.
cant accept that im gonna fail.
mugging super hard for paper 2 now.
hopefully able to do really well,
then at least i can still pass overall!!
joy and i had a tiff yesterday.
some misunderstandings i guess.
it was just before our add math/poa paper. lol
this time, rah was smart!haha..
rah came out with brilliant idea that solved the whole thing,
and everyone was happy again.lol
haha. we all went to rah's place to have fun and relax.
joy left earlier. =(
rah and i played the swing while walking back to rah's house.
haha. then we decided to go to town!
to buy mother's day prezzie!! for moms!
haha. it was so fun!!
rah and i havent been out together for a long time!!
anf finally yesterday we did.
we went shopping!!! and then dinner together too! :DD
then home... =(
haha. i bought that korean dvds "jewel in the palace" for my mom. lol.
cause my mom was asking me if she should buy,
so eventually i bought it for her.
hahha. so i gave it to her last night. haha
she started watching then. lol.
till soo late. i already fell asleep. haha.
but mommy was still watching.

and we took neoprints. haha.

after the "tanning" we went to town!

myself!!:D

haha. rah still had to tip toe...

and again.haha.

joy.myself.rah

ahha. rah said she love this pic. no idea whats special about it. lol.

with shaddess on!! haha. it was rah's b'day gift form us all.

rah and i again.

rah and i just taking more pics out of boredom.

just came home. when to study with guo, bay, joy and zhi xing at tcc the one at plaza sing.
their service there was lousy.
they took like what 5 mins? to show us the menu. w-o-l-s .
i tried something different today.
tried the oreo frappe ice-blended. yeah.
its super good! lol.
guo was damn funny la.
joy and i were laughing,
cause guo was calling zhi xing as "xing xing"
super gay la! haha..
joy and i started making up names
like calling bay "huihui" ahah! lol.
annyway, shant be nice to guo already.
he is so mean!! always suan-ing me! hmpt!

its like i had geog exam today too.
i think its like the first time i wasnt rushing throught the paper.
i think my brains are working faster now,
and i can work faster too. lol
i know joy will disagree with what i say. =(
math paper was boring..
i wanted to sleep or like rest or something,
but mrs khor was invigilating,
so didnt had the chance to.

rah and i [twinnies] it was rah's b'day!

haha. blogging about counterpain.
borrowed it from darling(deanna). haha!!
its super good and effective.
i applied it like twice, thrice and my muscles are not hurting already.
unlike yokoyoko. its not effective, probably work at times only.
i use that like for 2 days, applying it day and night but it didnt really help.
shall ask dad to buy it. haha..

didnt feel like studying so decided to blog. sigh. dad is home. =(
i woke up extra early today to type my personal report. haha. cause i forgot o type it yesterday, and i only thought about it when i was already in bed. so was lazy to get out of bed.
had to go to school today. (no hols) =(
should i ask about it?! sigh. i dont know. im scared to ask. howhowhow??!
i dont know what to do, but everone said the same thing.
i dont dare tell jo about it to. is there any other way out?! sigh.
im thinking so hard, but i think of anything that i can do about it.
just let things be like that? but it makes me feel really shitty inside. *pouts.
haha. i ate oven-baked fishcakes today again. haha.
it was crispy. lol. it was over-baked. haha!
i just realise how bad i am at cooking. maybe its just today. haha.
i shall go study now. =( boring.

finally bought it!! but i still dream about it.

joy came over to my place today, cause daddy is back so cant go anywhere. =(
haha! but with the help from joy. i mannage to create this blog. really bad at all this stuff.
i learn something new about it. lol. haha.
dear joy thought me. haha.
oh dear joy was addicted to my oven-baked fishcakes. haha.
i felt pissed off and irritated, so i wanted to eat something.
so found some fishcakes, and sliced it then baked it. lol.
sound gross but its nice. its chewy. haha!!
its my type of food. lol.
feeling super bad now. i feel stupid about it. i have completely no idea about what im gonna do about it, or what im gonna do next. its affecting me.
damn it i cant study.
i wish i could have holiday tomorrow too.like what most schools are having tomorrow. =( i cant wait for the hols, or rather for the exams to be over. haha. till then at least i get the chance of doing what i wanna do for a period of time.
i miss playing badminton on sundays. its so fun!!

i LOVE joy! ! !