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Friday, March 06, 2009

busy life of mine,
i seldom have the time to blog.
i usually blog when there are significant moments of my life,
or when im feeling down and not up,
or when im bored(rarely nowadays)
late nights again?
its 5.10AM now.

how down can today be?!
i hvaent cried in a long long time,
but today truly cried my heart out,
just couldnt help it,
the more i think about it,
the more i talk about it,
the more it just makes me cry.

i wasnt angry because of your objections,
and because you refused to,
i was even more, and totally saddened by the comment yuo made.
i cursed the person who told you what you said.
i guess this is just the world,
or maybe just you.
selfless and irresponsible.
all i can do now,
is pray that nothing will happen.
im also a human being,
there is a limit to the amount of energy i have,
i understand hardship,
i can feel how tough it is.
a guy physically, but not mentally.

today,
i totally understand kathe's emotions and feelings.
i thankful for kathe who is always there to endure and take in almost everything,
and i can only be there for her.
i always try to put good words and not make kathe think so much,
i always continue to believe they are not the way you tell me they are,
but i proven today,
that i've been totally wrong all this while.
why bother to defend,
why choose to believe,
when you know its all not true.
why?!

thats all i have to say,
and try to make myself sleep now,
and not be bothered.
2 more weeks!

i always tell people break the leg!
now i tell myself that.
GO, VANESSA!

@ 12:35 PM