SCHOOL RE-OPENS TOMORROW!! {26TH JUNE}

was blogging half-way yesterday,
when my mom woke up in the middle of the night,
and eventually she switched off the com.
so i didnt had anything else to do.
i did my homework then.
studied till 6.30 am and i went to pray and then sleep.

anyway, today woke up and then went to the airport.
met nick,hendy,chevy,louisa and sarah.
ahnged around there till about 4+
and we met annabeth.
waited for bry,
and later took 36 to suntec.
south outing at marche today.
ahah! the bill was so long.
spent only $720 there.lol
later, guo, joy and i went to candy empire.
bought more candies!!
bry bought starburst for me from aussie!!
guo paid for the sweets at candy empire. hah!

saturday:
there was a south outing at sentosa,
but i didnt go.
wanted to but cant.
woke up,
got changed and went for tuition.
dad drove me there,
and i was early.
tuition ended late.
joy and i were late for svc.
signed up for chem tuition.
my mom made me so pissed off!!
she didnt allow me to go for tuition,
which i think i really needed it.
she thought that by going for tuition,
i'm taking this opportunity to go out.
what nonsence!!!
later, went to have dinner at downtown east.
jo treated jo and i ben and jerry's!!
I LOVE FISH FOOD!!! :D

friday:
woke up really late.
mom went to do facial in the morning,
then i met her later in the afternoon.
cut my hair then,
mommy too cut her hair.
after that,
went to mango!!
its CRAZY SALE!!! :D
shop there of course.
i reserved 5 tops!!
later, mom and i had dinner together at cedele port.

havent been blogging in ages.
wasnt able to use the com.
sign. its been bad, real bad the past few days.
everything about family.
cried everyday, since wednesday.
my level of faith is falling.
i was wrong.
yet i allow myself to.
parents screaming,
brother , i dont know whtat to say about him.
feeel so different when im home annd outside.
i miss going to school,
spending time with my friends.
i miss those times,
rather then to be stucked at home.
feel so disappointed with my mom.
she doesnt trust me.

i ahte stormy nights.
makes me feel worst.

joy,me,christie!!,rah.

joy,cass,me,mel,rah! <3 at tcc.

tcc at MS haha. everyone is looking at their phone, except for cass..

cass,rah,jims,me! love!! before MOS at rah's house.

didnt blog yesterday,
cause couldnt use the com.
finished up lots of work yesterday.
sigh. i cant wait for my bro to go NS.
bro and i quarrelled last night.
it made me feel super bad.
didnt feel like staying at home.
felt as if the cause of everything was because of me.
couldnt take it.
it wasnt my fault right,
and you started shouting at me.
sis too, always saying stuff like
"dont touch my stuff, if you wanna use it let me know first, so that if it spoils i will know its you."
bro blaming me for whatever reasons that happensto his com.
what crap can this be.
i mean it wasnt my fault right.
damn it!
sometimes it just make me hate my family.
the feeling of being so..

today i practically stayed at home the entire day.
didnt do anything at all.
it was boring.

my heart feels so heavy.
i dont get it.
it so difficult.
i tried to be there.
but you seemed unhappy about it.
i dont want you to feel this way.
im just really bad at it.
im sorry.
i couldnt understand.
please dont ever say "NO" again.

Character Is Refined By Learning How To Use Principle While Refusing To Use People.

Matthew 20:28 (NIV)
“Just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life a ransom for many.”

Over the years, I have seen far too many people use other people in the name of God. We must never use others for our own benefit. When two individuals enter a relationship with only the thought of giving, they will both end up being receivers. What I personally plan on bringing to any relationship is give/give, not give/take. When the other person enters the relationship feeling the same duty and responsibility to give/give, the benefits for both of us will be abundant!
This reciprocity, this interdependence and complementary exchange, becomes impossible if you have entered into a relationship with someone who uses others. Regretfully, our society is filled with depraved individuals who use their relationships to feed their own greed and perverted lusts. Jesus never used people; He came to serve others and to give Himself completely. Your character will be refined when you learn to use principle and not people.

Confession“Father, I thank You that as the Son of Man came to serve, I posture myself as a servant in all my relationships.”

Scripture Reading
Proverbs 8
Psalm 134

sick of doing holiday homework alr.
still so much more to go.
sigh. i've already done a stack of it already.
its only 1 more week left. =

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!
(INCLUDING BAY)

sigh. i was at home the whole day today.
no idea whats up with me. =(
ponder.ponder.ponder.
i took a long time to decide.
but in the end i decided not to.
i guess if i went,
my heart will bleed.
things will turn out bad.
and it'll take a long time to heal.

anyway, i woke up at like twelve.
ate lunch, skipped breakfast.
studied..math,chem did the quiz online.
slept really late last night.
had a struggle with chinese.
gave up in the end.
it was way tooo tough.
i asked giant,
but he didnt reply.
dont wanna talk to you already!
no idea what is he up to.
joy wasnt able to help.
haha! but its alright.
i dont blame you,
i love you dearly joy..
and i went online today,
alomst the whole evening.
i was bored.
couldnt stand doing math already.
joy and i played games on MSN.
played solitaire first,
cause i wanted to,
and she gave in to me.
later, after dinner,
played minesweeper,
that was what joy wanted to play.
hahha.. it was fair to everyone.
we were bored,
and started looking for pictures of one another.
haha!! really ancient and dinosaur pics.
it was all super hilarious!
it was entertaining.
we were laughing over the phone.
hahhaahah...
cant forget the sight of bay's pic.teehee..
i'm nice so i woudnt blog about any of those.
i had dinner with daddy today,
AT THE DINING TABLE.
this hardly ever happens.

i kinda miss guo,
and his entertainment.
guo come back quick!!!!!!!!!!
=(

didnt have the chance to blog yesterday.
finally, i came home again.
after tuition on wednesday,
came home and went to cousin's place.
stayed over till friday.
anyway, was super tired and lazy today.
ahah! i set the alarm clock at 11.15,
knowing that i'll take my own sweet time,
and lazing in bed,
choosing and deciding what to wear,
its gonna take a long time.
haha! but the alarm clock was of no use.
it sounded,
and i switched it off.
continued sleeping.haha!
woke at 12!
it still wasnt enough for me.
but i didnt have a choice.
i woke up and continued painting my toe nails.
haha! did it half way and went to bed.lol
i mutli task later,
cause i was gonna be late for tuition.
so i ate my lunch,
and at the same time,
do my nails. =)
haha! bathe and later realised that i was late.
i was rushing out of the house,
and PTL! daddy asked if i needed him to sent me.
haha! and i said ok.
so i was EARLY!!! :D

after that, went for svc.
it was fathers' day special.
haha! sis, mom and i manage to persuade dad to go.
he went! PTL! :D
its now his 2nd time attending svc.
he clapped today,
he gave offerings too.
but he didnt respone.
sis and bro both persuaded,
but it didnt work out.
he said" its fine, as long as you know it in your heart"
bro,sis and i were all unsure about it.
i guess he wanted to respone,
just didnt want to go forward.
not sure if he did say the prayer.
but im glad that he have changed..
anyway, all of went to marche for dinner.
ahha! a great time of bonding and fun!

FRIDAY:
woke up really late.
haha! cause my cousin went for tuition,
so he didnt wake me up,
or disturb me form my sleep.
ahah!! it was so peaceful..
woke up only at 1 in the afternoon.
then did one math paper,
and went to have lunch.
studied till like 4,
went to bathe,
and then left to meet joy and bay.
went to cell house early.
they didnt have the key,
so had to wait for me.
sorry that i was late.
anyway, joy and i sang,
and bay played the guitar.
it was bay's first time playing the guitar during cell.
later,after cell jin and i had to take the bus home.
no kangoo rides from jo. :(
while walking to the bus stop,
30 went pass..
ahhh!! i had to wait for the bus,
for so long.
but it wasnt really long last night.
haha! probably cause jin and i had a intresting convo.
it was great company.

i guess this is nicer. dad smiled more. its once in a lfe time he ever smiles like that. :D it makes me glad to see him so happy.:DD

it was super yummy!!!! strawberries i love!! ping ting and i.haha!!

my family! love love!! =)

sis and i at marche. yummy!!! :D

joy having a hard time opening the door.this tells you 1 hting, that joy only uses her keys once every 2 months? lol. it took her about 5 mins i think. lol

unknowingly i brought eeyore along to buy pins for jo, until we reached downstairs.lol.

caught unprepared. lol looks weird!

in the lift at cell place.

pretty joy with her new pin! love!

talleah.seraphina.me.shizhen!.louisa.joy!

WHOO~WOOO...
KOREA WON TOGO!!!! :D

oh well..
only when im alone i feel that way.
i shant view any.
the feeling of jealousy is bad.
what can i do next time,
if i still feel this way?!

i still have cravings for famous amos!
(its so random)

i misss home..
havent been home for the past 2 days.
was staying over at my cousin's place.
i had fun though.
the company and all.
better then staying at home.
the only company i have at home are my books.=(
just came home now.
went for mrs towey's tuition just now.
sigh..had to wake up SO early in the morning.
I MET RAH!!
i miss you so much!!!
haven't seen rah for ages.
cant even rmb when was the last time i saw her.
haha!! came to change and grab stuff.
going back to aunt's place later. =)
yay! granny gonna stay over tonight too!
i love my granny!

MONDAY:
finally, i manage to make some time to bring my lil cousin for a swim. =)
i think she was really happy.
she has been for me,
but im always busy.
what a bad cousin i am.
anyway, i had fun then.
my lil cousin is super adorable!!!
she is it think a year plus.
i went to her place,
and she kept calling,"jie jie!"
haha! she held my hand and brought me round her house.
haha! went we were about to go down for a swim,
she streched out both her hands,
and called out "jiejie"
i carried her! =)
she put on weight.
aiyo, she was so heavy.
ahah!! but i didnt drop her. =)
after the swim,
went to granny's house for dinner.
later,went to my cousin's house and stayed over till today.
at cousin's house,
slept super late.
haha! we were watching garfiled.lol
t was kinda boring though,
watch till we fell asleep.

TUESDAY:
woke up super early.
went to republic for breakfast.
later, went back to cousin's house.
haha! we were suppose to study,
but instead we did a little work,
and went to watch X-men.
in the evening,
ben and i went to the park.
he blade and i cycled.

me(left) and steph(right) doing a basket toss!

i cant sleep!!
coughing so hard,
till my tummy hurts.
am bored now..

haha!! was lazy today again.
planned to waked up at 10,
but in the end i didnt bother about the alarm clock,
and continued sleeping.
haha! woke up at 12 instead.
anyway, had a late breakfast.
and then went to bathe,
and then met joy in town.
i was late again.
sorry dear! XD
couldnt find my sis nike shoe bag,
the exact same one.
sigh! i dont know how to tell her.
too afraid to do so.
went to meet mommy at city hall,
and went down to expo.
svc is at hall 1 now.
its so far away from the station!
anyway, went to buy curry puffs after svc,
haha! i had cravings for them.
went for bs after that.
didnt have time to fellowship with them at all.
after bs, they all left already. =(
well.. bs ended late.
went to meet mommy at suntec after that.
did some shopping!! :D
bought stuff obviously,
not only for myself but birthday gift too.
it was crazy at suntec.
it was super crowded!
anyway, i couldnt be bothered about it,
as long as they dont interupt my shopping.
haha! i bought a new moto jeans(topshop)!:)
oh!! and cocoa trees was having some promotion,
like buy 3 and get 1 free. haha!
i psycho my mom to buy me my favourite chocs!
yay!! haha..MALTESERS!!! <3
later, went to city link.
bought cards at precious thouts.
saw this guy working there,
he was super funny!
he stood at the door and shouted this,
"15%off stall wide, 10 mins left"
and he was counting down to close shop.
haha!! people walked pass and they laughed!
anyway, caught the second last train to kallang,
and from there daddy fetched us home!
bought supper brfore going home.
haha! i had cravings for food. any!
i missed the soccer match today!! =(
by the time i reach home,
it was already about 1 am.
haha! sis and i played monopoly after i finished eating.
its been a long time,
ever since my sis and i done that.
it was super funny!
we had great fun...
at first sis bought the 2 most expensive prperties.
i thought i was gonna lose,
but i was saving so hard for the rainy days.
sis mortgageso many of her properties in order to buy those.
in the end, i was filthy rich!
so i bought the lot over,
to collect the whole colour-set,
in order to builg houses.
yeah.haha!! and with just 1 set,
my sis declared bankrupt!
haha! i had only 4 houses then.
and it was just an average lot.

cant be bothered to blog about my 2 other missing post alr.
blogger is laggy!!!
it irritates me!
shan't be bothered by it.

i think my memory is failing,
i can hardly remember stuff,
or i'll forget them.
sigh.. this is bad...
i have to think really hard about what i wanna blog about.

anyway, i played babdminton today.
it was a cg outing.
haha! i had fun!
this is for bay to read:
"dont give up ok,you'll definately be able to serve well with great practice!" =)
after badminton,
went for cell.
it was so fun today.
haha! played spelling bee..
learned alot today.
it was awesome!
had macs delivery for dinner.
later, home sweet home! =)
watched tv, did some work.
sis got cravings suddenly.
haha! went to buy food then,
in a way to prepare for the world cup.
haha!! food to eat while watching.
the match is still going on now.
GERMANY is gonna WIN!! :DD yay!

bry,hendy,han sheng, junle, nick, chevy, me,steph,sarah.

han sheng, junle,steph and i. =)

last night,
you made me cry again.
i was thinking,
why isnt it you,
instead it was someone else.
when i felt that i needed someone,
you werent there for me,
you seemed so busy,
i dont know if you even notice,
or even wonder why i'm like that.
i felt you never care.
why is this so?!
when will the next time be you?!
i miss you so badly.
i wonder if you will ever read this post.

what is love?!
what does it require?!
what does both party have to do?!
what it needs to love someone?!
when i was young,
i used to come across many of these articles,
but more or less,
i couldnt be bothered about it.
now, i ponder over these questions.

before emerge: talleah,debra,sarah,beth,me,bethie,steph. <3

me and bry!! :D

the girls..steph,diana,me!,joy,liyee!!

hendy and me!

fel and i!!! love you girl.. =)

havent blog for quite a while.
it was emerge the last 4 days( thrusday-sunday)
so was super busyy,
and tired tooo,
so didnt blog.
it was so toching,
and super saddening too.
after going throught so much,
thinking that we wouldnt make it,
but in the end,
SOUTH WON POS!!!
it was one of the most memorable time then.
will never forget what that feeling was like.
the feeling of joy and happiness..
you can never describe it with words how great it was.
anyway, i had great fun throughout these 4 days,
spending time with south and all.
so much fun, till i forgot to do mr lee's homework.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jheTd-dFEKU&search=pos

EMERGE: me, mom and joy after emerge.

SOUTH UNITED!! -THE OVERALL WINNER!

emerge: haha!! yay! i "won" chuanyu in arm wrestling!

emerge : me , chuanyu( arm wrestling winner!) and bettie!!

WHEN MY WORLD WAS IN DARKNESS
YOU SPOKE YOUR WORD
NIGHT TURNED INTO DAY
YOUR BEAUTY FILLED THIS PLACE
WHEN MY WORLD STOOD IN SILENCE
YOU FILLED MY HEART
WITH SONGS THAT NEVER END
FOREVER I WILL PRAISE
TO THINK THAT THE UNIVERSE
COULD NOT WITHHOLD YOUR GLORY
YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE IN ME
I'M SO AMAZED
(AND) I WORSHIP YOU LORD
MY LIFE IN YOU RESTORED
HERE IS MY HEART
MAKE IT YOUR SANCTUARY
FOR NOBODY ELSE
BUT JESUS ONLY (YOU)
YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE
GLORIOUS LORD
ALL MY LIFE
IT IS YOU I ADORE
YOU'VE TOUCHED MY SOUL
COMPLETED MY WORLD I SURRENDER TO YOU