FINALLY!!!! THIS IS IT!!
THE LAST DAY OF EXAMS!!!! :DD
TOMORROW!!!
oh my.. i've been waiting for this day,
at least i can take a short break.
past few weeks have been mugging all the way.
next up,
would be O'level prelims for math.
ohh my... i can sense the boredom already,
doing so much of math.
its really boredddd....
this is one of the worst exam ever.
fell sick in the midst of exams.
its was crap man.
yesterday(thursday),
i was down with fever in the morning,
and then with flu in the afternoon.
i was already coughing like earlier this week.
but thank God!
my fever gone down the next day!
wheee~ the headaches and all are gone!!!
last night was really terrible!!!!
i couldnt sleep last night.
the headache was so bad..
it was hurting like crap!!
i even cried, cause it was really unbearable!
i was struggling to sleep.
i feel like doing something really crazy right now.
there is like sooo many things i wanna do,
but i feel there is so little time.
i wanna stay over at rah's house.
i wanna go to the beach, stay with mr sun.
i wanna so swimming!!
i wanna play rummikub with nicklaus.lol.
i miss playing with my 3 years old lil' cous.
i miss hanging out late in the night with my friends.
I MISS PLAYING SIMS 2!!!
how am i suppose to do what i wanna do by tuesday?!
everyday, half the day would be occupied by something.
anyway, i went to study with jiaman today!
she was damn funny!!
hahah!! we studied at millenia walk.
obviously, when you go to millenia walk,
there is always one place you have to vist,
that is CANDY EMPIRE!!! :DDD
its a place you cant resist!lol.
there are just somethings i wanna give up.
but i know i cant.
if God has place me in this position,
i know he'll bring me through it.
but what am i suppose to do now?!
its soooo... argh!!
i everything just run smoothly and well?!
i hate ups and downs.
i know its something i have to face up to.
well, i just say im not strong and confident enough to.
lean on God's strength?!
i've been trying to,
as much as possible.
problems just come,
and make me wanna stop what im doing,
and just let go of everything.

well.. what have i got to day. my b'day will be the day.no other choice to be made.i hate this kind of life.feeling down and all each time i see you or when i read your blog. its feels really bad. IHATEIT!!!! i feel like a spare tyre. since you love every single one, it makes no difference saying ilu.

[WE-RAH & JOY]

[LOVE]

[VAN] my "presence" was still there when i couldnt be at rah's place.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! :D

yesterday,
my brother came back.
i was super pissed off.
couldnt control myself.
i blabber out all the vulgar words.
everthing seems to be my fault.
even for the things i've not done,
people will just think its me.
what the crap?!
i doubt people will believe what i say.
cause im always the bad one compared to my sis.
i'll never be as good as her in other's point of view.
continue later.
got to change com.

did i know she took it?!

I LOVE RAH!!

E175. [broIan's b'day]

1/4 the people

jeff[GIANT], steph,sarah,louisa,hendy,me,junxiong,nick,guo

me.steph.louisa @ marche (south last outing)

TO everyone reading my blog:
tag me if you know how to create a password for blogs.
cause i wanna create a password for my blog,
but i dont know how to.
wish my brother is back,
he'll probably know how to,
but he is curently at tekong.

anyway its been a long time,
i havent felt like blogging so i didnt,
been really busy with preparations for my exams.
my first paper is on the coming friday.
about my life,
its BORING!!!
all i could do everyday is to study!
what else can i do?
i've got no idea.
i had fun over the weekends,
at fop, and during chc 17th anni.
yep! it was great!!
bay stayed over at my place,
to make sure that i'll be home by eleven.lol
im sorry bay i "slap"you while sleeping.
my hands are just too long.
recently, thoughts came flashing.
it made me ponder anf think about loads of stuff.
sorry, but i dont wish to name about it.
all i can, is that its affecting me.
i cant help it,
but to make myself study more like 24/7
to stop myself from thinking,
having wild thoughts, that confuse me.
i feel itss the only way i can stop thinking.
i cant think of anything else that i can do.
i feel like giving up,
sometimes i felt like a complete total asshole.
like im A TOTAL IDIOT!
sometimes, thinking about it,
i feel stupid.
why am i doing this to myself?
but yet why is it so tough to let go?
well.. i can say jealousy always kills everything.
it forms hatred between friendships.
it makes everything turn sour.
i wonder how somebody can stop oneself from feeling jealous.
i really dont know.
A COMPLETE LOST SOUL, SEARCHING FOR AN ANSWER.
i dont what to say,
people care,
they wanna know,
but i dont know how i can bring it across.
it take lots of courage for me to do something like that.
each time, i __________ my heart becomes heavy.
so heavy, it sinks deep down to the bottom of my feet.
whenever i does that, i feel sooo ____.
but what can i do,
it affects me so badly.
i'm deciding what i can do now.
should i do what darl told me to?!
or should i just keep it this way?!
somebody tell me!
I WANT AN ANSWER!!
i feel so miserable inside.
God abba father.
heal my broken heart.
='(
RAHRAH, i cant do it.
i cannot not think about it.
i really treasureit a lot.
how rah?!
i cant bear to give it all up,
but i dont wanna lead a life like that.
=(

bay.juvian.joy.me [drinking watermelon juice!!] :D

and there you go! [feeding one another peach] lol.

exchanging spoons..

yipee!! watermelon!! it was super yummy!

watermelon at bedok.haha! looks a little gross right? cause we forgot to take a pic before digging in. heh.