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Thursday, September 18, 2008

what happens to a faulty aeroplane?

i've been really busy since the start of september.

-cheer 5 times a week

-Ben&Jerrys' 4 times a week

-church twice a week

there isnt any reason for me to be tired and no perform.

coach's words on wednesday definately affected me.

maybe im really not a good flyer.

i stopped flying on wednesday night after i heard those words from him,

and thought maybe i should take a break.

many other urgent matters to settle,

and little time left.

did tose to hand, extension, liberty.

although there were many suports,

i just felt i couldnt do it.

i wasnt afraid or anything,

since when i wouldnt do something because im afraid?

it went fine,

but i just felt that i was a bad flyer,

not strong,

not good,

not capable to perfection.

did pop twist.

somehow just couldnt do it today,

and injured raymond really badly.

i felt really extremely bad about it.

im really truly sorry.

whoever that felt worried,

im sorry.

and i realised i wasnt that strong afterall,

to handle all the emotions, etc.

i felt so bad,

that i wanna stop flying.

bad vp?

bad flyer?

had an awful beginning in the day.

i opened shop alone today,

and the other scoopy came in only later.

she was the new scoopy from usq.

bad experince and never wanna work with her ever again.

i'll cry!

i'll scream at my manager!

manager called and ask me how,

i said i dont wanna work with her anymore!!!

ask all the stupid question,

super blur,

super slow..

@ 9:16 AM