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Sunday, July 15, 2007

in the beginning,
things were mutual.
soon after,
feelings developed.
although we may have the urge to confess,
which already happened,
i felt relieved.
anyway,
i was so afraid to tell you about it,
cause i was afraid that things might change,
but you took the first step,
nothing changed.
as others began to know about it,
things still remain the same,
i was thankful.
i really appreciated you,
for what you have done,
the sacrifices you have made.
i truly treasured the times i had with you.
you made school more exciting for me.
you may not be perfect,
you may have a terrible past.
despite,
we should not look back,
but always be forward-looking.
so who cares about your past?
now,
we talked about other stuff.
yet again,
i got the same fear.
the problem lies with me for sure,
to break this bondage of fear.
i enjoyed every moment that we had spent together.
the times we would walk aimlessly as we talk,
the times we enjoy the scenery together.
the times you surprised me,
the times we talk on the phone,
even the times we were msging.
can things just be as it is now?
and remain where it is for the time being?
i dont ask for much,
cause i know by doing so,
matters will get worst.
i miss that little starfish.
well..
let God plan;
let time reveal.

i just got scolded by mom.
cause i switch on the light in the toilet,
in the morning,
and i forgot to turn it off.
dad came home,
and he found out.
maid got scolded,
guess im gonnna get screwed by her tmr.
my said she did slap me,
if this ever happen again.
=(

granduncle is in a critical condition.
he calls me malaysia la,
cause he cant pronounce my name.
mom was telling me that he didnt ask about anyone,
but kept asking about me.
i teared when mom told me.

@ 1:56 AM