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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

still have to go to school.
sad to say, but its not the hols for me yet.
went to school,
lessons as usual.
was super boring.
after school, joy and i both took the bus down to church.
went to church for pos practice.

practice today was kinda bad for me.
felt super low went i went for practice.
during practice,
it made me feel worst.
i totally didnt have confidence at all.
felt soo soo lousy and useless,
felt as if i was the worst flyer.
i felt so extra too.
feeling as if without me,
things would be much better.
as i was looking around,
i asked myself,"why am i here?"
so crapy la.
later, i couldnt take it so i walked off.
joy said i disappeared for about an hour.
wasnt too sure if it was really so long.
anyway, came back.
still didnt have confidence in doing pop twist.
didnt want to do,
but i didnt have a choice.
everything was in a total mess!
1st attempt:
giant got injured, caus emy elbow hit his teeth, and it bled.
sorry giant..
later it got better,
but still felt like i cant do it,
and felt super stressed.

now, my bottle is full already.
have been bottling up everything.
so many things happened.
-results
-parents
-sister
-cell stuff
-pos.
after all this,my bottle is FULL already.
went to stay over at rah's place.
i emtied my bottle then.
felt so carefree after that. =D

@ 4:35 AM